Annoyed

So I warn you all this is a little bit of a vent! I am not an ungrateful or selfish person... Things have just really build up for me lately and I need to get them out!

I am really sick and tired of people who say they are your friend, but don't play the part. I feel like we are all adults now, this isn't high school. If someone doesn't like me or want to be friends- by all means don't talk to me. I guess the people you always thought you would be friends with drift away. Maybe with our lifestyle friends just come and go. Seems like the only consistent friends I have are other military spouses. I am also extremely sick of people who don't understand our lifestyle being judgmental. Like, oh well- your job can't be that hard.. I just don't think anyone should pass judgement until they share a similar situation- and no your husbands 2 week long business trip is not even close- and no I do not care if he only came home for a night and then left again, the point is you got to see him. No one can understand the hurt you feel when you are separated for very long periods of time. I not only am affected but so is my daughter. There is nothing worse in my eyes than trying to soothe my screaming daughter at 2 am because she woke up crying for daddy. It hurts me to see her hurt so much. I do not even enjoy hearing the, "well you knew what you were signing up for when you married him." You never know how a situation will be until you have already done it. Would I change it, absolutely not! It just gets hard, and I didn't realize it would be this hard.

I am also really sick of people who act like their life is perfect. No ones marriage is perfect, and no one is perfect. Its all for show and thats the bottom line. I have realized though, that life is not a popularity contest. Life is the journey to self- actualization, and self-happiness. Notice they both start with self- they also end with self. I believe that having so much going on in my life is helping me in an odd way. I am becoming tougher. The things that once embarrassed me do not anymore. I do what works, and I work my tail off. I do not care if I go outside mismatched and haven't done my hair, because I am becoming very comfortable in my own skin. I never had confidence before, but being forced into uncomfortable situations has really boosted me. As much as I hate the unknown and unfamiliar, it is good for me. It is turning into a bitter sweet type of uncomfortable. Its helping me, yet it really is uncomfortable for me. The unfamiliar has always been a tough one for me.

I think some people are never forced to grow up and tough things out- and maybe be a bit uncomfortable. I believe that when people act like their life is one big party, they are trying to cover something up- or they wouldn't tell everyone that would listen how perfect they are, or how much they attend church.

Last, but not least- housework is no fun, and I need a maid. :p haha. Had to say it!

Thats all for now,

Air Force Wife

Same old song and dance?

Every day seems like it is the same things, just a different day for me. I feel like the days are going by so quickly, which is pretty good because it means my Airman will be home before I even know it. It is so weird though, I have never had days feel so long during them yet somewhat blur. If I am not cooking, cleaning, taking care of the baby, or doing homework then I am sleeping haha. Its just plain crazy a lot of the time! Some days by the time the day is over I am just thankful that it is time for bed! My Airman will be home in a few more months though for his one month mid-tour, then I get to go see him about half way through our second half of this tour!! :) I think a trip to Korea could be interesting to say the least. I love learning new things, and so it could be really fun. I am nearing the end of my classes this block for college, which means finals this week and then I am moving on to all new classes!!! I couldn't be happier about that. It makes me feel really good when I finish classes. I am pressing through, slowly but surely. This is just something that time will just have to pass- fast or slow, crazy or normal- I have to wait it out.

On the bright side, I am going to go buy some yard supplies and fix our yard up here in a few days! Ought to be interesting. :) I also am going to get a good workout routine going, if I can ever have a moment to do it. It would be really amazing to surprise my husband with a different- better body.

My daughter is learning so much, I swear that she is going to be really grown up by the time my Airman returns. I cannot wait to see her reaction to him. He is coming home at a random time and day, and not telling us when it is in order to surprise us! I think it will be amazing. I am a hopeless romantic though, and there is some feeling of romance and love when my Airman wants to surprise me. It makes me feel really special.

Until next time,

-Air Force Wife

Let the Potty Training Begin

My little princess is my first child, so it is absolutely amazing to think that my little girl is becoming such a big girl. It is really funny how that works, one day your holding your newborn and the next thing you know they are walking, talking, and being a big kid. It almost seems like the stages in between just went so fast that they almost didn't exist, almost as if she has just evolved. :)

So after waking up to a mess for the last week I have realized that she may need to be trained. My princess does not want to wear diapers anymore, they are for babies she says. She likes to take them off and be 'free'. So let the potty training begin! I have set up the house for her potty chair, got her big girl pants so all I can do is hope it works!

I got to talk to husband last night for a long time- he finally got a weekend off. He is really excited for our princesses milestones which makes me excited. It was so nice to be able to talk to him, even when I lose a lot of sleep to talk to him it is very much worth it! Hearing him, and seeing him makes me know that I am never alone in my parenting endeavors- no matter how far away he may be. He is always so upbeat, and always offers a great deal of input to help me out. I love when we swap ideas about what things to do with our princess, and things that we do not want to do. It really keeps the lines of communication open.

This week is finals in college for me, and I am really confident. I love how gratifying learning is. Once my finals are complete I always smile and think to myself- a few more classes down towards my goal! I love it. Well that is all for today in my hectic life.

- Air Force Wife

Our Military Situation

While I cannot mention dates, places, or anything specific- in order to understand my blog I will explain our situation a little bit more. My husband is currently on a one year tour. He is in the Air Force, and he just returned from a deployment to a hostile war zone. He is now in a non hostile location thankfully. We hardly had any time together, and that has made this separation harder unfortunately. So until next year I am home with my 1 year old daughter. I try to keep myself busy, and I go to school full time. I am hoping to meet others who can relate, it is always nice to be able to share experiences and different ideas that can help one another. I also want to meet other moms, this is my first and only child so I have questions quite often- guess it's true, there is no book on raising kids. ;)

A Little Bit About Me

Well, nothing is ever perfect- no life without hardships. My hair is always a mess, and I can't remember anything. I put milk away in the cubboard sometimes because my mind is so stressed. :p I like to sleep in on every opportunity, and I love my family more than life itself. My daughter is a princess and my husband is the king, so does that make me the queen? I love romantic gifts from my husband, and I enjoy playing video games till 3 am. I have a fear of germs but I can clean up after my daughters antics. I watch aimlessly as time passes, and I enjoy walking around wal-mart for hours looking at decorations. It seems like days blend into weeks or even months for me. Some days I feel as if I am living just to keep our house running. I love to learn, and I can type an essay faster than anyone you know- I would put money on that! My goal is to help people, ordinary or extraordinary. I was adopted, but dont mention it because most of the time I am not thinking about it. I watch yo gabba gabba more than any other television show that I have ever been hooked on in my life!(Life as a mother) I have naturally curly hair, and half the time it looks like an afro and I cant make it look right. I don't really care though. I have to learn to let people get to me so much. I get my feelings hurt easily. My computer breaks about every 2 months, maybe it sucks or maybe I am not very lucky. If I look pissed off, I probably am and it is probably not the best idea to mention it. I love music of all kinds. I play guitar hero like a champ. I enjoy disney movies and I am scared of horror movies. I support our troops to the end- my husband is one of them. I love technology very much. I enjoy working out and it makes me feel better, but I am usually too lazy to work out. I have been married for almost 3 years, and only have seen my husband half of it. I enjoy little things- like cheesecake and swinging on my back porch. When I hate something I will procrastinate for as long as possible to do it.




My dogs annoy me, but I still put up with them because they are cute. I dont hesitate to let people know what I think as in, "First off, I dont appreciate your attitude.thanks. second off, can you make my appointment for two. thanks." :) I often get told that I tell people off without ever raising my voice, and its true. I think it means I have class, because I do not yell or cuss at people, but believe me this- my point always gets across. With that said- I am a total prep as far as my style goes, in high school and now. I doubt it will ever change. I cuss, I like to be the best, and I get jealous like everyone else. My life and home is just average- trying to make my way in life!